Tag: war

entry five — scattered light, fractured grace: a quiet archive of light, loss, and what remains.

“He who has peace of mind disturbs neither himself nor another.” —Epicurus

Aperture

There is a kind of light that doesn’t just shine, but also fractures.

It breaks open the moment with something softer than silence and more honest than certainty.

You don’t chase it, you receive it.

This image wasn’t planned.

This frame wasn’t forced.

There’s a stillness even the flowers seemed to know, and reflect back to me.

It is not the stillness of silence, but of surrender.

Not of bracing against beauty or the process of becoming-in-progress, or of apologizing for taking up space mid-bloom…but of letting the light have its way.

I simply stood still long enough for the light to offer itself—scattered, wild, and full of grace.

I saw what was really there:

Buds preparing to bloom and light wafting in, yet also ambient and still.

The entire moment was an aperture through which grace entered, unbothered and whole, needing no permission.

And in that quiet moment, it became a mirror for all of us—one that perhaps none of us knew we needed, and that many would automatically overlook.

How often do we chase clarity instead of becoming it?

How often do we disturb ourselves, or disturb the world while attempting to distract ourselves, by blaming everyone else?

How often are those moments merely us trying to be louder than what already speaks through us?

There is no control in peace.

No performance in healing.

Only presence.

And in that presence, we disturb no one—not even ourselves.

We become the quiet offering.

We become the still center in a world unraveling at the edges.

Today, as I stood still in the midst of both internal and external war, peace didn’t arrive with fanfare.

It arrived as fractured light through pine trees.

As a silent, oft unnoticed breath.

As a reminder that maybe the most sacred work is not to act, but merely to remain open.

Not to close.

Not to harden.

Not to explain ourselves into exhaustion, but to become aperture.

To simultaneously remain wide enough to hold what’s real and narrow enough to let illusion fall away.

And, to be balanced enough in both intellect and empathy to know the difference.

This is the answer: detachment.

Not from emotion, but from illusion.

It is not denial, not distance.

Rather, it is the quiet rerouting of both emotion and cognition back to stillness.

A return to clarity, not an absence of care.

And somehow, by not reacting, by not reaching, we find we are already held.